Lesson Learned

I vacillate (meaning to waiver or move between two points, in my case 'of view') between being something of a tyrant and a forgiver. I've come to accept as true, true or not, that I'm a bit of mystery to some, a sort of storm on the horizon.

I can be tirelessly patient and completely unreasonable in a single breath. I can be tremendously understanding and minutely demanding with a look.

Why?

Does anyone else feel like this? Am I the only one who feels my life is an intriguing and weird experiment of opposites sometimes?

The only caveat I can say is that I am much more even-keeled than I was as a child. As a child, it was even wider spectrum for me emotionally. But that was very fun, in its own right. It had a way of keeping me attentive.

Ultimately, I think this has something to do with my core, the fire inside. There are things that ignite me, good and bad; there are things that rile my senses with superb volatility.

I guess that's what makes me human: to perceive, to pose, to solve, to effect and be effected. My guess is that towards the end of this span I'll know a bit more about all that.

Why the hell am I so existential today? Jeepers.

I leave you with this: